Okay...I have had a little epiphany (with a little help, like the suggestion from Sam!). I have an account on Pinterest and my boards are a wide range from homemade products to recipes to fashion and beauty I like to words of wisdom (well, I think they're wise). Recently I made a new board for myself, and titled it "Inspiration and Motivation." Why I did this is because certain things were said and insinuated in the past couple days that, well, frankly hurt. And they've hurt my whole life, really. I'm not going to go into full details and call people out, because I think highly of most of them and don't want others to think any less of them. Plus, some of them I don't think realize they do it and I'd rather not start any drama.
That backstory aside...I found a sight on Pinterest that gives little tips specifically for female weight loss. I'm completely guilty of comparing myself to men in all ways, having grown up with four older brothers, and believing the mantra "Anything you can do, I can do better." And in some cases this is true. But in weight loss...not so much. I realize that men and women really are built differently, aside from the obvious. And as much as it SUCKS that all men have to do practically is cut out soda and they drop the pounds, moping about it isn't gonna do anything.
So I think I'm going to kinda "micromanage" in a way. Before, it was just checking in once a week, but obviously that isn't enough. I'm going to check in once a week still with my weight progress, but my measurements as well (I'm thinking just my hips and belly, unless someone else has any reason I should do any others). I'm going to keep track of what I eat in a journal (that helped me once before). I'm going to start exercising (starting slow with just walking or some simple exercises I've seen, also on Pinterest...I love that site!). I'm going to set goals for myself, so I have something to aim for (you don't want to drive around without a destination, do you?). All of that, and I think I'll be pretty good.
There are those out there that doubt me. Go ahead. You can doubt me like you've doubted me my whole life. Just please keep it to yourself, though. That doubt is part of the reason why I am the way I am today.
Weight: 246.2 (part of the micromanaging...I'm putting the full number my scale says)
Hips: 49 3/4 inches
Belly: 53 1/8 inches (yeesh!)
Goal: Since it's basically next month...10 pounds down by the end of April (roughly about 2 1/2 pounds a week). Since I've never kept track of inches before, those that do track theirs...what's a good goal? I know an ultimate goal, but I don't want to think about that right now because it's too big of a picture and more room for discouragement.
Picture: There is none this month. Sorry for those who were expecting it. I figured that since I am making over my plan and the fact that I've lost hardly any since I started, it's pointless to post one. Just look at the previous picture.